Often I wonder what I’m doing
Aimless thoughts over and over
Routine steps hardly any new
Escape or die decide no later
Trapped in an illusion That things get better
Shake it off and get up Why this seems so hard
I know the reason And so it is sad
Why I don’t follow My own intuition
Doubt is what I fear the most
For what I have paid all through my life
Yet I don’t know the cost of my escape
Nor of any other choice if I have one of course
Unlike a decade a go, nowadays feelings and thoughts are widely expressed and spoken of. People don’t have to find someone who would listen to them. Thanks to the popular media such as internet, which hosts various social networking sites and blogs, and mobile telecommunication technologies, people express their feelings more frequently and freely. When you look at them, you might think that there is so much going on in people’s lives now. But these complexities were already there from the beginning. The only difference is that expression was limited. However it doesn’t necessarily say anything about the quality of these expression. Whatever post in the media is subject to own interpretations. Yet some would argue that it would bring more open discussion compared to old one-to-one system. As the number of perspectives would be limited if you share your expressions with just one in person whereas it can be millions in social media. However, we share our feelings on social media. Yet how many of us can actually express true feelings over such media with limited number of words? And without seeing most of the non-verbal emotions, without listening to the depth of the voice, how can we draw conclusions on what we see on, for instant, Facebook status? Yes, there are smily faces and emotion icons but who are we kidding? You can read a lot by looking into someone’s eyes, sometimes without saying a word. Social media to express feelings, therefore, is ineffective.
However I must note that, if you simply need to get over your feelings, or just wanted to clear your head, social media is probably a very effective tool. You are likely to get attention you need, which might help you to get over your feelings. Although I don’t think you should rely on it too much. An intervention from a few best friends would be thousand times better than millions of “likes”.
Somebody once said, life is not the amount of breath you take, but the moments that took your breath away. But, every morning when you wake up you realize that those moments that took your breath away, the life, had evolved around a one big deception, your life shatters right in front of you, everyday, every moment when you come to think of it. No matter how hard you try, it won’t go out of your head. It keeps coming, reminding that it was not even a dream, nothing but a deception that played with your feelings. Imaging you have to live with this fucked up reality stuck in your head poking you every single second you breath! Perhaps this is why some people ended up drinking, to temporary free your mind from the unpleasant realities that you once lead to believe as the “Life”
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Junkyard 