Often I wonder what I’m doing
Aimless thoughts over and over
Routine steps hardly any new
Escape or die decide no later
Trapped in an illusion That things get better
Shake it off and get up Why this seems so hard
I know the reason And so it is sad
Why I don’t follow My own intuition
Doubt is what I fear the most
For what I have paid all through my life
Yet I don’t know the cost of my escape
Nor of any other choice if I have one of course
Junkyard 
this is very thought provoking – and provoking many of my own feelings and how I relate to this piece.
Thank You 🙂
lost=disoriented
doubt is fear
fear could be ‘fear of rejection’, ‘fear of society and it’s people’, or ‘fear of yourself’
communicating with the person you have in mind could ease the pain…
It’s nice that you bring a different perspective. I wrote this with regards to my work, and whether or not I should take a risk and change it. Although it seems easy to do, it’s complicated than I thought.
In that sense we all are vagrants and ‘we don’t know the cost of our escape’.
However it’s nice to see you writing again sir. Went through some of your works and thought you have quit writing.
Thanks Hirantha. This is why I like the Web. You don’t need to be an expert to write and publish. There’s someone somewhere read and feedback. Ands it’s often a good way to ease your mind rather than relying on everybody around you, who are busy in their own problems.
you sound like a reflective person. i like that.
there are people who can manage high amounts of stress, those who cannot cope with stress, and those with zero stress levels. zero stress level people could get bored with life that has no challenges.
redefining your life’s priorities might help.
if you are a homely person you probably like protection and care
if you are adventurous you might want freedom
i personally believe that if i want to establish my own happiness i need to move away from familial obligations. duties you owe to your parents can constrain you from moving forward. this reflects on expectations, on parents and others who have a hand in taking decisions about your life. best thing is to follow the heart. you will never regret it as long as it’s logical, and something that can guarantee you promise and profit. the key to establishing your own happiness in my opinion is
1.education
2.security
try not to satisfy everybody else around you. do something to yourself today that your future self wouldn’t regret
i wish you all the best subodha
Probably the best comment ever!
Thanks.